Woop-Woop Adventure!

I thought id be fine after my break-up. I thought i could be more focus with what im doing, i could be more stronger than i was. But i cant. The days went by, i still felt the same. Broken. Hurt. And regret. I really wish thatni could invent the time machine, so I would not do the stupid thing that i did. I still want him. I still want us. I still love you. I cant help myself. I keep crying during the day and night. Even at work, i still remember him. How i used to get text from him in the morning, text him after i woke up, text him for what i was doing, text him to let him know that i miss him or just to annoy him. I try to be strong but i cant. Hes my weakness. I never been like this before. And it hurts me alot when he told me that he wanted to block me and he said its better for me not to text him. Im falling to pieces. How could he say it :(((( when my world revolves around him. When hes my air and I suppose to breathe with my air :(((( all i can say.. “okay...” but im not ok...

yes. I think you can tel why the caption is "this is the end". I broke up with my sunshine. I never thought my perfect relationship will end up like this. Tragic? Yes. I think its true that i always have bad romance. It started with little fight. Well.. i ddnt know what made him really pissed off. We were just talking bout something, like he asked me question. I ddnt realize that my opinion made him so pissed off. I know that something wasnt right. So i asked him and tried to break the ice. Hes a straight forward person. But i dont knw why lately he kept doing like me. Told me that everything was okay. So I continued to watch Friends series. stupid me, knowing that he wasn't okay, i kept continuing to watch it. Until 3 episodes. So I asked him and he was really mad at me. I was shocked! Like i ddnt do anything to him. And he said all whats on his head. And said that it was too late for me to say sorry and to made him feel better. Short-long story... it was sad day for ...

YAY! finally i got my instax. wakakaka. i dont know why suddenly i just wanna get new instax since couple weeks ago. i didnt see any video or pic that influence me to get one, but i just wanna have it!!!! i thought that i wouldnt buy this thing since i dont really need it, and the feeling of craving to take picture with it would go away.  but.. i was wrong. i kept on checking the website, and checking the price and if there was promo for it. call it lucky or unlucky, but yes! they do have promo. its included with the bag, the film itself, the camera and the album. ahh and the color just so cute. i wanted the yellow one. well it costs around 30kd for the not really latest version one. so i was aiming for that camera. the days went by... the thought of it still there and it just made me really want it, i just scared that the deals would go. so i decided to go to the mall and check check look look the camera. and when i was there in the shop. OMG! the color just more cut...

I dont know why, but lately i just feel like i really wanna jog these days. since my boyfriend has long off days, so sometime i woke up late and dont go to gym cause i wake up late too. and i feel bit guilty to be honest. so i really really wanna jog or doing some exercise after work. But unfortunately, my gym closed 1 am when i reach home around 12:30ish. so its defo impossible for me to go to gym after work. the only choice that i have is.... jogging outside :O and my boyfriend doesnt allow me to jog alone either. sooo.. since tonight is the last night for my boyfriend to stay up, i force him to jog with me when he is  sloth mode. wakakaka. i think he loves me so much so even tho its so hard and difficult to move his ass from the bed. finally, he gets up and dress up! (YAY! Behabek Habibi) we jog in the sea side close by his apartment. the weather is nice not humid at all. whatta perfect night! yay! we jogged for like 3 miles (based on Nike app that i have on my ipod) it was...

Eid Mubarak! Today is Eid Adha! But i ddnt go for the prayer thingy, cause i woke up late 😭😭 Was hang out with my boyfriend and his friend till 3 am in the morning. Nothing really special today. My restaurant suppose to be super busy today, but its just like normal day. I prepared for everything just incase it was busy and the "sounds fancy" dish came from the order paper. I hate it cause there were 2 table, and they came late wheeenn my restaurant close already. Huhuhh. So sad, but we still accept them. Lucky there was no dessert, so i could close my kitchen. My boyfriend, Mazrn asked me alot of questions before i went to work. Start from who i super-like on tinder, why I did not super like him, why i swipe right for "those ppl" and alot of questions which is tricky and could make him fricking jealous. Anyway.. I answered him just like the reality and what in my thoughts Im so jelly with his work btw, he got 5 off days cause he works at the office, and ...