I still love you (too)
I thought id be fine after my break-up. I thought i could be more focus with what im doing, i could be more stronger than i was. But i cant. The days went by, i still felt the same. Broken. Hurt. And regret. I really wish thatni could invent the time machine, so I would not do the stupid thing that i did.
I still want him. I still want us. I still love you. I cant help myself. I keep crying during the day and night. Even at work, i still remember him. How i used to get text from him in the morning, text him after i woke up, text him for what i was doing, text him to let him know that i miss him or just to annoy him.
I try to be strong but i cant. Hes my weakness. I never been like this before. And it hurts me alot when he told me that he wanted to block me and he said its better for me not to text him. Im falling to pieces. How could he say it :(((( when my world revolves around him. When hes my air and I suppose to breathe with my air :(((( all i can say.. “okay...” but im not okay.
And till one day, he texted me. He sent me a pretty rude text. I didnt knw how to answer him that time. Like kinda scared but i did want to see him. I miss edhim. Long-short story, I ended up meeting him. He said mean things to me :(( he did mean things to me. I didn’t hate him that time. I deserved it. Thats all i could think. No matter how bad he treated me, I deserved it. Stupid? Maybe for you. But me. I lost the love of my life. He treated me good back then, but i kept doing the same mistakes which he hates it alot.
He asked me if i want him to take me home or ill go by myself. I answered him that ill go home by myself. He just okay me. I started to pour my tears. I ddnt wanna cry, but I couldn’t help. I prepared myself to go home. And suddenly he hugged me so tight. Wiped my tears, and said “i still love you too. We are getting back” i still shocked for what he said. I was happy, extremely happy. But sad and feel jot deserved it. “I know i know, you fucking don’t deserve it. But i just cant see you cry everyday and getting hurt everyday.” And he smiled. His smile brightened my night. Again, he picked me up from the darkness. I cried even harder. He pointed at a small white board on his wall. Its writter “I Miss U(tarry) :( 17/9/17) “ and he added, “i swear to God, i ddnt just write it now” he paused for a while and continued, “smile now. We r getting back together :) “ and he showed me the camera that he got for me. Well my gopro is broken, so he got me another actuon camera. I was so happy. Double happy. None ever could make me feel this way. I dont knw if his heart made from steel or diamond. But his heart just so strong, and pure. Your my guardian angel. My sunshine. My everything.
Thankyou for picking me up (again) from the darkness. My life is such a mess without you.
I love you till the end.
Forever yours.
Tootsee❤️⛄️
I still want him. I still want us. I still love you. I cant help myself. I keep crying during the day and night. Even at work, i still remember him. How i used to get text from him in the morning, text him after i woke up, text him for what i was doing, text him to let him know that i miss him or just to annoy him.
I try to be strong but i cant. Hes my weakness. I never been like this before. And it hurts me alot when he told me that he wanted to block me and he said its better for me not to text him. Im falling to pieces. How could he say it :(((( when my world revolves around him. When hes my air and I suppose to breathe with my air :(((( all i can say.. “okay...” but im not okay.
And till one day, he texted me. He sent me a pretty rude text. I didnt knw how to answer him that time. Like kinda scared but i did want to see him. I miss edhim. Long-short story, I ended up meeting him. He said mean things to me :(( he did mean things to me. I didn’t hate him that time. I deserved it. Thats all i could think. No matter how bad he treated me, I deserved it. Stupid? Maybe for you. But me. I lost the love of my life. He treated me good back then, but i kept doing the same mistakes which he hates it alot.
He asked me if i want him to take me home or ill go by myself. I answered him that ill go home by myself. He just okay me. I started to pour my tears. I ddnt wanna cry, but I couldn’t help. I prepared myself to go home. And suddenly he hugged me so tight. Wiped my tears, and said “i still love you too. We are getting back” i still shocked for what he said. I was happy, extremely happy. But sad and feel jot deserved it. “I know i know, you fucking don’t deserve it. But i just cant see you cry everyday and getting hurt everyday.” And he smiled. His smile brightened my night. Again, he picked me up from the darkness. I cried even harder. He pointed at a small white board on his wall. Its writter “I Miss U(tarry) :( 17/9/17) “ and he added, “i swear to God, i ddnt just write it now” he paused for a while and continued, “smile now. We r getting back together :) “ and he showed me the camera that he got for me. Well my gopro is broken, so he got me another actuon camera. I was so happy. Double happy. None ever could make me feel this way. I dont knw if his heart made from steel or diamond. But his heart just so strong, and pure. Your my guardian angel. My sunshine. My everything.
Thankyou for picking me up (again) from the darkness. My life is such a mess without you.
I love you till the end.
Forever yours.
Tootsee❤️⛄️
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