D+3

Is it normal if sometime the thought of him cross my mind for few mins? And i feel like wanna text him that i miss him or i feel like regret why i let him go?🙁
I hate this feeling. I really do. 
And hate the fact that he thinks that i just overthink and connect the wrong link when i got the prove already. Anywaaaayyy it doesn’t matter anymore. Im not looking for short term relationship. Thats why i loved him so much causw he told me that he wanted the long term relationship. But he changed his mind, so I should not be so regret to leave me ya? But i still miss him. Or maybe i just miss the idea of him? 🙁🙁🙁
As my mom said “dunia itu tidak sekecil daun kelor, sayang” its right too. I should get put from my small circle and try to meet new people and trying to get new life. Even he did it before i left him. Partying with bunch of girls when he said he went with his colleagues and all of them were guys. 
Khalas. I dnt want to recall it anymore. Ppl does mistakes. I did too. I lied bout my past to him and i lied once bout the skirt that i wore 😂😂  and he was so disappointed with me but he ddnt understand that it hurts me so deep when i found out bout him with another girl. I love it when my logic is working not my fucking stupid heart. 

Im planning to get new piercing this Saturday. Cant waiiit!! Been long time since i wanted to do this wakaka. I dont knw if it will be so painful or the pain that he gave me more painful wakakaka. But ill make an appointment with the piercing lady this sat! I dnt knw whether i should get the dermal piercieng or just normal one :/ shes leaving kuwait by 13 of dec. i want to get dermal pierced too but im scared if it get infected.
I feel so much better today in the gym, knowing that i lose my 5 kg back wakakaka after one week or two weeks complaining that I gained my weight and now im loosing it again! Run for 9.25kmnin 65 mins never been easy in my record. I was such a bad runner back then 😂😂 now i can run in speed of 8.5 when before to reach speed 7 its just so impossible for me 😂😂 i think i need new stuff to motivate me to do more things in gym, new pair of yoga pants probably ❤️❤️❤️ Or new dresses?? But where I’m goin to wear it wakakak. 

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