D+3.5

The idea of keep talking with him it just totally wrong. The more i talked the more i hurt. He doesnt even care now bout what i feel. Why should i keep telling him how hurt i am?? Maybe now hes enjoying his long weekends drinking with that girl. When im here just stand alone and watch the past in my mind and crying. Why does it hurt so bad? Why do i feel so sad??
I should have be okay by now. Its better that he is single and hes goin out with someone than im still with him but he goes with her ya? Both of it just hurt somehow :(((
Why u have to do this??
When i get thru this?? When i will have my normal feeling toward him? Im so stressed. 

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