I dont know what i should do in my life tbh. Seems like all the bad things happen in one time. Since i went to Indonesia, i feel like everything is different. My mood swing, difficulty of sleep, loosing my appetite and feeling sad.
I never been this sad leaving my family. I was sad whenever i went back to the place where i work, but this time just so different. I was super happy cause im goin to see my boyfriend here but seeing my mom in her worse condition just made my heart broken. Yes. She is sick. Shes been sick for like 3 years i guess. But the last time i visited her was on February and she was fine. She was better than before. But this time, she just look so weak, she loses alot of weight :( all i can see is her bone. She doesnt want to eat properly. Im sad.
And i dont knw why, i just felt like my boyfriend kinda hate me so much when i meed him the most. I need him to understand me and i thought he will understand when i was busy there or when i had my mood swing cause of my family problems. But he did the opposite.
I feel like im alone now when im on my low point. I wish my boyfriend would understand that i need him by my side :(
Everything just so tough now. I wish this phase will pass soon. And God please make me stonger no matter what happen. 

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