D+6

Spent my off alone wasnt good idea. I thought I wouldnt cry and be so depressed. Yesterday i spent my off alone reading book in my favorite sbux. I decided to go to this mall cause I planned to watch the movie after. Bt it went not as a plan.
I just kept crying and i texted him. I shouldnt text him but i just missed him so much :(( then when i was about to leave, i saw the table which the table that we sat for the first time. So i became more gloomy i spent sometime there, recalled everything and cried. I ddnt notice from where, suddenly theres was a guy came and sat in the same table with me. I said to him that i ddnt wanna talk, i just wanna be alone. But he kept on talking trying to distract me, but he couldn’t. Hes not him who can distract my mind just like that :((( i dont knw if texted mazen that there was random guy sat with me was good idea. He became more worried and kept texting and calling me. And i was so confused that time, i wanna text him but this guy keep talking. I just cant be in that situation.
This guy gave me some advice that I should nt be this sad. And the pain will go as time goes by. But all i want is mazen :(( to heal the pain 😢😢😢
It just so difficult. I dont knw what i want. I dnt knw to whom i should listen. My heart or my brain.

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