You are strong, Mimi.

☹️ i Just came to work, and i chopped the vegetables for my mise en place. Not longer after, i got a phone call. I thought it was from mazen but it was from my dad. Tbh i just got a feeling that it might be not good news. 
And its true ☹️☹️☹️☹️ Its about her. His love of his life. His everything. Mimi. 
He never tell me bout this kind of things actually, like when i was in dubai my mom was hospitalized for few days and he ddnt tell me. But this time js different. He cant tell to amanda, since she just move to china to start her new job and he cant beby cause she got exams. And the only daughter whos been far away from home for almost 3 years is only me :((( he told me with the very calm voice. I bet its so difficult to control it. 
He asked me to go home, since my mom is getting worse. She cant do anything just resting on bed. My heart just pain. It hurts. It hurts more that when i broke up with mazen :((( i wanna go home. I want mazen to calm me down. I dnt know what to do.
I just listened to him, and tried not to cry but i failed. My dad said that shes doing new treatment now from different doctor. Cause the previous doctor doesn’t affect her at all. 
She needs to get minimum 10 injections everytime she goes for treatment. The doctor said that she need atleast 15 tomes to see the doctor. Thats alot of injection. And shes too weak for it 😭😭
All i can think just wanna go home. I wanna take care kf her. I dnt wanma be selfish. But im not sure if i can take any leave :(((( 
God.. pls make my mom helalthy again...

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