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I talked with him yesterday after i slept-over at his place on Saturday. Well it was really wrong decision i guess. All the talks, the open up and everything :( it just made me want him more and expect him to come back to me.
“I dont want tomorrow come” i said. He said “why?”
“I want us just like how we r now. I dnt knw what will happen tomorrow. Things will be change after we woke up” I answered. He just silent and continued watching movie.
And it was right. Nothing really different tbh at morning till night. Yes till night i closed my kitchen. We were talking bout our plan. That i wanted to stay over on Monday night since Tuesday i have my off. But then he told me that i shouldnt come at all to his place, we meet outside and he will pick me up. I freezed, stared at my mobile, i feel my eyes watery :( and suddenly i just remembered the tragedy of 30th of Oct. which he lied to me. So i linked this one with the 30th of oct. i ignore him. I disappointed. I dnt knw what to say.
Then i rplied his text. He just said what. I bet he thinks that i made the drama thingy again. He doesnt knw that it still hurts. He was mad at me cause I ignored him :(( he doesnt knw that im hurting knowing that he will go party and stay over at her place or just to be with her. And he doesnt wanna knw and understand. He just ended the conversation and sleep.
In the next dat, i ddnt text him. I wanted to. But i try to forget bout him, trying not to care bout him. I did. And i ddnt text him. I was fine, till he called me. And again he yelled ate :(( just because im protecting myself for getting hurt.
“I dont want tomorrow come” i said. He said “why?”
“I want us just like how we r now. I dnt knw what will happen tomorrow. Things will be change after we woke up” I answered. He just silent and continued watching movie.
And it was right. Nothing really different tbh at morning till night. Yes till night i closed my kitchen. We were talking bout our plan. That i wanted to stay over on Monday night since Tuesday i have my off. But then he told me that i shouldnt come at all to his place, we meet outside and he will pick me up. I freezed, stared at my mobile, i feel my eyes watery :( and suddenly i just remembered the tragedy of 30th of Oct. which he lied to me. So i linked this one with the 30th of oct. i ignore him. I disappointed. I dnt knw what to say.
Then i rplied his text. He just said what. I bet he thinks that i made the drama thingy again. He doesnt knw that it still hurts. He was mad at me cause I ignored him :(( he doesnt knw that im hurting knowing that he will go party and stay over at her place or just to be with her. And he doesnt wanna knw and understand. He just ended the conversation and sleep.
In the next dat, i ddnt text him. I wanted to. But i try to forget bout him, trying not to care bout him. I did. And i ddnt text him. I was fine, till he called me. And again he yelled ate :(( just because im protecting myself for getting hurt.
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