The decision has finally made.

Maybe alot of people think that im so stupid and so weak. But the truth is im still in love with him and i still wanna be with him and i believe that he loves me too. I make mistakes and he makes it too. No body perfect. All i know loce is not something to exchange. Theres no take and give. Its just unfair if i do good things to him and i want it in return. Itsnt pure love.
Im leaving kuwait for goods. Im going to leave him in the next 3 months. Im feeling sad tbh. But my family, especially my mom needs me by her side. I want to be selfish but my heart says i cNt be like this. I love him and i love my mom too. Its so hard for me. I dont wanna lose them.
I know i know, mazen might not my the one, but my mom will always be my mom. But if u r in this position ull have the same difficulty like me 😔😔😭😭😭😭
I never feel this in love to someone before, willing to do anything just to make him happy and im happy just to get his hugs as a reward. Silly ya? 😢 ill talk to him tonight. Ill talk to him that i just want us to be okay for the next 3 months. I just want to leave kuwait with good memories with him. Cause after i left, i might not see him anymore. He might find someone to replace me. But all i know hes just irreplaceable. Even tho i talk to another guy, i just still wish that it was him. I just want to see his name on my mobile. I just want him.
Ill resign in the next two weeks. Drop all the good things here and leave it behind. There must be something good waiting ahead. Im crying while typing this blog.

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